Last night , I was busy packing all my stuff. Well , I will check in to the hostel tomorrow evening. Yeahh ! Okay , back to the story. While Im busy packing, I suddenly found my old diary. It is between me and him. The one who always makes my day wonderfull long time ago. I open that book and started to read it.

Guees what ! My tears falls down. Then , I remember all the memories between us. The things that we use to do together like watching movies, shopping, walking at the beach and we go to anywhere that we want. Do you still remember ? There will always be your morning text message when I woke up in the early morning. And It will be always has your goodnight wish everynight when I wanted to go to sleep. And I just miss it. Miss it soo much. I just can't stop thinking of you sice the first day you left me alone and you go to her. My ........... ! But , I am strong enough to continued my life without  you. And Alhamdulillah ~ My life was better than before. I feel the happiness all around me.

But sometimes , I miss the feeling of liking and loving someone. The feeling where all you can think about is how you can make him happier. That feeling when you gt a text message and hoping it is him. And when it ia not him, you will disappointed.

I miss it. The feeling when you just sitting alone and holding your phone. Waiting for him to text you or to call you so then you can talk to him. I miss the feeling. That feeling when you want to go to sleep and you keep thinking of him and you are hoping that he will thinking of you too.

If time can rewind. I wish I had never met you. Why ? Please ask me why !!

Because , if I never met you. Then , there would be no need to want you. No need to loving you. And no need to cry for you.

Its just hurt. Its hurt enough. Why must me ? I am the one who feel the pain. And I am the one who feeling lost. It just not fair. Yeahhh , absolutely not fair.

But its okay. Allah itu maha Adil :) And I trust it. There will be one man who is kind enough for me. He will come to me one day. He is my future husband. And I just waiting for him to come so then I can love him with all my heart. INSYAAllah.